Day 6: A laid-back Saturday

This is one of those days when I don't do anything much yet I feel contented at the end of the day. I cleaned up and tidied my wardrobe. Once again, I realised the therapeutic power of putting things in order - I was reminded that I'm an OCD at the same time lol. That was probably the only productive thing I did today. Also did a little shopping and replenished my facial products. Ate a lot of good food.

I'm thankful for such Saturdays. They don't come very often.

On a different note, I think I still miss him. There are so many things that I thought of sharing with him but had to remind myself that this shouldn't be happening. I'm getting better though, at least I hope so.

Day 5: Family time

It's my big sister's birthday and so the family is all (missing 2nd sis) in KL. Happy birthday ka j!

I'm grateful to be around my family. I think I have never appreciated it as much. This week has been tough but at least it's now ending very nicely. :)

Thank you for loving me for who I am. For loving me even when I was the shitiest person on earth. For tolerating my temper and forgiving me when I took things for granted. For having my back all the time. For telling me, over and over again, that things happen for a reason so we have to go with the flow. For telling me that I'm stronger than I think I am.

My family is the best. :)

Day 4: Little things that make your day...

Some days, the little things really would make my day!

Today, I (had)
1. A short but sweet breakfast with Eilyn.
2. A pair of Israeli pants from Marsh, which also fitted well despite my big bum.
3. Collected my standard chartered race pack and got the perfect sized singlet.
4. Got a booklet full of buy 1 free 1 vouchers with things I would definitely try - camp 5 climbing lessons and entrance, bottles of glenmorangie, dinners and coffee, massage etc.
5. A smile from the cutest 4 year old in the world.
6. Managed to sell off my musical ticket.
7. A pair of sunglasses for Nepal at a reasonable price at a sports expo.
8. Another booklet of vouchers for JeeJee.
9. Bakuteh with Tian Huey (the restaurant was opened! )!

What a day! I can now shower and sleep happily tonight. :D

Day 3: Patience and tolerance...

Today, I'm grateful for my new found tolerance and patience. I used to be impatient and easily irritated by little things that don't matter. My temper was short and I got pissed off really easily. Although I'd feel bad after that, things would have been said and anger/irritation shown. Recently, however, my levels of tolerance and patience have reached a new high. I could tolerate unpunctuality. Drivers who don't seem to know where they're going. People who are irrationally demanding. In these instances, I was able to take a step back and rationalise and justify the situations or for the people. I'm glad to be able to do that - brings more peace to the already chaotic life.

For that, I really would like to say thank you. And to those who had to tolerate my imperfections as such in the past, I thank you too. :)

Day 2: Great conversations...

I had this lovely conversation over dinner with a friend today. A dinner/meet up that was supposed to happen months ago but was postponed so many times I lost count.

I'm thankful for being able to express myself freely - something that was an issue to me before. I teared a little, just a little, during our conversation but that was okay. I understood myself a little better. Mind cleared up a little. We laughed. He shared his issues. We joked a little. We shared some silent moments. He told me to think more for myself. We hugged and said good bye.

I'm thankful for moments/dinners/meet-ups/conversations like this. Everything felt natural and open. Even the silence was okay. And when I left, I felt a little more positive about things. And the best part was that he bought dinner. Haha I'm kidding, meeting up with him made my day.

Thanks, Kev. You're the best!

Day 1: Friends who have my back...

A few weeks ago, as my life deviated from its path and turned into a mess, a friend shared with me a link - 365 Days of Appreciation. As that important chapter of my life came to an end and while I try to pick myself up again and heal my soul, I have decided to embark on this journey of appreciation and gratitude.

Today, I am grateful for my friends who have, for the past 3 weeks, stood by me and listened while I cried, ranted, vented and poured out all my troubles. Thank you for listening. For your advice. For providing an alternative way of looking at things. For telling me I deserve better (still trying to internalise this). For being patient with me. For simply being there.

You guys have no idea how much all those moments meant to me. If anything good came out of this mess at all, it's knowing that all of you have my back and I will never be alone.